Wild Thought

Desperate Odor

I feel really down after failed to married at 2015, and lose motivation to write anything. And since that i tried several date, but still not successful to get a girlfriend. The first date is failed because when in date i still thinking about my ex and not focused on the date. And after several failed date, i realized that every woman have that different perspective even when they sometimes act like my ex. And then i found someone who look like good candidate, and have going several date with her. But it still not successful because she just used me to buy thing for her.
And then goes again several failed date so i decided to just going around with my friends. After that i skipped date for several month, and then my friend introduce me to a girl. And i going date few times with her and i feel like it is a match. And i invite her to join with my friend to trip, and it is a fun day. But few week after that trip, her respond is bad and the shocking news that my friend is became her new boyfriend. So i feel betrayed and not want to go anywhere. So, i skipped date again several month, and just going with a few friend.

Daily Life

Where is my Lebenslangerschicksalsschatz?

Today i had watch how i met your mother season 8 serial 1 and this is the best scene of the movie. I will just write it down hope you can feel the great moment although it is just a conversation text. And it is started on the station when the Klaus being asked by ted about why he left victoria, and the dialog continue to:

There is a word in German: Lebenslangerschicksalsschatz.
And the closest translation would be…

’Lifelong Treasure of Destiny.’

And Victoria is wunderbar, but she is not my Lebenslangerschicksalsschatz.
She is my Beinaheleidenschaftsgegenstand, you know?

It means…’the thing that is almost the thing that you want…
but it’s not quite.’

“Lebenslangerschicksalsschatz is not something that develops over time.
It is something that happens instantaneously.
It courses through you like the water of a river after a storm, filling you and emptying you all at once.
You feel it throughout your body…
in your hands…
in your heart…
in your stomach…
…in your skin…
Of course you feel it in your Schlauchmachendejungen, pardon my French.” Klaus (How I Met Your Mother)

Have you ever felt this way about someone?

Yeah, I think so.

If you have to think about it, you have not felt it.

And you’re absolutely sure you’ll find that someday?

Of course. Everyone does eventually.

You just never know when or where.

And, the story continue to ted met the girl with the yellow umbrella and then the film is ended. This is make me wonder when or where i can find the Lebenslangerschicksalsschatz? and i sometime wonder do i have met my Lebenslangerschicksalsschatz but not realize it. But i don’t missed it because if i think about it then it is not my Lebenslangerschicksalsschatz, maybe it is my Beinaheleidenschaftsgegenstand or my wunderbar i missed. But eventually i will met my Lebenslangerschicksalsschatz, and for meantime i will upgrade myself to be my best self. So when i met her i will become her Lebenslangerschicksalsschatz too.


My First Monkey Love

When i’m driving home then my heart flooding by my past love and i decide to make my love life into post. Because i want to remember what lesson that i learn from them, and maybe you can learn by reading my stories. My first monkey love it’s happen when i’m in elementary school, and i can’t remember exactly in what level but i think it is in 3rd level.

The story began when i’m in 3rd level and i just hate school that time because the headmaster is ask the student which is they take a bath in the morning. And she asked me often then i will answer honestly that i don’t take a bath, so she will make comment of that and people will avoid me that day.

It change when the new classmate name Nadia Hutagalung came, although her name like the name of the famous model but is not her. She is mixed from asia and australia and mixed people usually very beautiful, but i just hope to be her friend at that time. Then it just like dream come true when teacher put her in same desk with me

Wild Thought


Soulmate, everyone dream of get their soulmate and think it must be the one and the one only. So, if they get mate then they compare it with their ideal partner and if something wrong happen then they will think their partner is not their soulmate. Therefore they will try and try until they find someone that suitable enough with their ideal partner.

But until some time then they give up to find their soulmate and find someone that close enough with their soulmate and be together. Then they live with their partner but there something in their heart still searching for the soulmate and sometimes if they found someone better they will betray their partner to be together with someone they think their soulmate. So, they think their life will be happy but at the end it will be miserable.

So, lets change your mind about soulmate. Soulmate is more than one and soulmate is might be opposite with your ideal partner. Because if soulmate just one then what happen if your soulmate die before you met them, or why you can love for more than one person if your soulmate is the one. Or why at the first you have doubt about someone if soulmate is the one or what happen if you miss your chance to met your soulmate because you busy. There is so many reason why soulmate is more than one person.

So it is more likely you will have several soulmate and you will miss chance to met some of them or your soulmate will miss chance to met you. But if you find someone you feel attracted or love than that is your soulmate and you must try your hardest to be their soulmate because emotion can’t be explained but you had this feeling toward them so it must be your soulmate.

The reason the soulmate might be opposite from your ideal partner is because what happen if your soulmate ideal partner with other person and your ideal partner with your soulmate or why your ideal partner is change from time to time or why your ideal partner is like your copycat or what happen if because they change their character to be your ideal partner but you just feel empty from their heart.

So it is more likely you will find some of great character from your soulmate that improve your character, and you will improve your soulmate character by your character. And it is not always character that you think your ideal partner must had before met you but this is will always make you and your soulmate character growth. Because i think ideal partner will always make their character and their partner character growth.

So, what you waiting for? go find your soulmates out there and don’t doubt about them because you will not know it is until you try. Happy hunting your soulmates.

Wise Thought

Love, key to feel peace

Love is hard to explain but not love is easy to explain. Because not loving is will always come up with hatred or not care. And to express hatred is easy you can scold people, kick people, ignore people or even worse you can kill people. But our topic is love, and love is many kind depend on our relation with other. Love to our child, love to our spouse, love to our family, love to our country, love to our friend, but greatest love is love to humanity. Love is hard to give cause it can be wrong interpreted or wrong understand. Like when we want to help clean our spouse table but our spouse is angry cause our spouse hard to find the important notes or we want to help our child to happy by giving them present but they don’t like it cause it not toy they like. But by giving love to everyone you will be feel peace in mind cause you don’t keep hatred in your heart and you can eat, or do something without worry. And we must choose carefully to giving love cause it can be wrong understood or interpreted but not afraid to giving love.

Lets spread your love to everyone

Wild Thought

Love is …

Love is hard to describe but we know that exist when we looked a couple. There are many variation of love : love as a parent, love as a child, love as a friend, love as a teacher, love as a disciple, love as a couple, love as a husband, love as a wife, love as a family, and many other. When our parent worrying us when we go hiking? or when we worry about our parent when they sick? or when we go out with our friend? or when we call our husband just to remembering him to lunch? Is it love? of course that we can call that love, so what is love about? is about care, care and care.

So which is more act of love when we fullfil a request? or when we reject a request? Let’s take a deep look, when we fullfil a request we think to give them our best and hope they happy. And when reject a request we think for their good sake. So, which act of love is depend of our purpose when we accept or reject a request, if the purpose is for their good is act of love. And when the purpose is for our good is act of selfish. But they will not see is a love when we accept a request because they think it’s just a duty. And when we reject a request that just because we don’t love them anymore. However if we love them then we will let them understand theirself.

So, Love is “action that we do to somebody because we care and think of their good sake no matter what they think